Monday, May 29, 2006

Ham of God


I wanted to share part of an essay out of the book I'm currently reading. The book is Plan B Further Thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott. She is my favorite author. If you have never read her, I highly recommend it. She is bright, edgy, funny, spiritual and in recovery to boot!


"Ham of God"
On my forty-ninth birthday, I decided that all of life was hopeless, and I would eat myself to death. These are desert days. Better to go out by our own hands than to endure slow death by scolding at the hands of the Bush administration. However, after a second cup of coffee, I realized that I couldn't kill myself that morning - not because it was my birthday but because I'd promised to get arrested the next day. I had been arrested three weeks earlier with an ecumenical bunch of religious peaceniks, people who still believe in Dr. King and Ghandi. Also, my back was out. I didn't want to die in crone mode. Plus, there was no food in the house. So I took a long, hot shower instead and began another day of being gloated to death.

Everyone I know has been devastated by Bush's presidency and, in particular,m our country's heroic military activities overseas. I can usually manage a crabby hope that there is meaning in mess and pain, that more will be revealed, and that truth and beauty will somehow win out in the end. But I'd been struggling as my birthday approached. So much had been stolen from us by Bush, from the very beginning of his reign, and especially since he went to war in Iraq. I wake up some mornings pinned to the bed by centrifugal sadness and frustration. A friend called to wish me Happy Birthday, and I remembered something she'd said many years ago, while reading a Vanity Fair article about Hitler's affair with his niece. "I have had it with Hitler," Peggy said vehemently, throwing the magazine to the floor. And I'd had it with Bush.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Why I'm Still in Michigan...

OK, there are a couple of other reasons as well....
But these were taken during my tri-weekly stroll on the beach earlier this week. (click the photos to enlarge)

*sigh*




Sunday, May 21, 2006

I run. I'm a runner. No shit.

So, I am training for a 5K. OK, stop laughing. I'm serious. It's in August, and no...I'm not gonna walk it.

Why, you ask? Because I can, that's why. Because I can run because my feet don't hurt. And I can breath and my knees aren't shot and my back can take it. And because I couldn't say any of these things a year ago.

In order to hold myself accountable, my friend, trainer and running partner told me that I am supposed to shout to the world that I am training for a 5K.

Brand new things are afoot, my friends. A new lifestyle, a new season, a new physical me.....

Oh, and I just might be falling in love....

Monday, May 15, 2006

I'd forgotten..

What it was like to float... To walk without touching the ground, to fly. I'd forgotten what it was like to stare... into another's past, present, and future. What it feels like to just be. And also what it feels like to fall, so God, be with me as I close my eyes, heart in tow, and jump....just a little....

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Quote of the Day

"our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful~
BEYOND MEASURE.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves, who am i to be
brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
actually, who are you NOT to be??
you are a child of god.
your playing small does not serve the world,
there is nothing enlightening about shrinking
so that other people wont feel unsure around you.
we are born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us.
it is not just in some of us.
IT IS IN EVERYONE.
as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
as we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others..."
~Nelson Mandela

Monday, May 01, 2006

Quote of the Day


Anyone who says that sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain. ~Author Unknown